Thanks for looking in on me and for your words of encouragement.
I'm really down at the moment, can't seem to get up no matter what I try, and I'm thinking that things are pretty much done.
I have an L appointment tomorrow and am hoping that I won't have to deal with H's most recent ultimatum about our cars until I get further advice.
I printed out a chronology of events in our marriage for the Lawyer and reading it through made me see just how hopeless things are. No wonder H can't come back. It's just too awful to get over.
I'm almost too embarrassed to give it to the L - wanting to stay with a man who has done these things makes me look like some kind of fool. I keep telling myself that his actions are not those of the man I know, but seeing everything set out on paper in a time-line makes me understand why H thinks it's impossible for us to get over what has happened.
