New trying to DB-Help!

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Still pretty well since backslide the other day. Today we went shopping as a family to redo one of the kids bathrooms and W keeps talking about the future of us as a family? Really trying my best not to read into anything. She's been kissing me on the lips more often which she quit for a while, but I let her instigate all contact like that.
We go on week Caribbean trip next week with her family with out the kids, so I'm still very nervous about that! i don't know what she's told anyone in her family about our R, but I don't think too much other than maybe we were having problems a few months ago.
Her father has been married 3 times and his father 4 times and her uncle several to, so God only knows what he'll say if they get talking about over drinks. We get along well, so I have no clue. We go as a group, but spend a lot of time as couples alone and usually only get together as a group in the evening for dinner. Normally I be excited to go, but not this year due to the precarious nature of R right now. My gut tells me W really wants to try to make it work. She has just told herself for so long she was leaving and to finally tell me that, and then not go thru with it, especially after she started EA with OM then cut it off, that she's waiting it out to see how it will all play out. But what do I know, that's just my impression. i think initially she expected ME to file D when I found out about OM and she wanted out and when I didn't I threw her for a loop. Again, who knows and I guess as long as we are both taking day to day, it doesn't matter much...