He came over again this morning. It's now a new routine. He fed S3 breakfast and watched D n S while I showered. He said he'd come to pick up S3 to take him to the movies.
This was great, right? Well I think I'm premenstrual cuz all I saw was negative stuff. He got to here late this morning and wanted to rush off to the gym cuz his guy friend was waiting for him. (I immediately think OW is waiting for him or he spent the night w her which is why he got here late)
As I write this I'm telling myself- DETACH!!!! Sever those emotional ties and DETACH!!! But when I'm PMSing it's hard!!!
Also last nite he had invited me to go to the movies w him n S n now he acts like I wasn't invited. So I need to remember NO EXPECTATIONS!!!!
Wait a second!! Wasn't I just saying a few days ago that I'd rather do GAL activities than go out w him??? Am I bipolar or something??? (that's a rhetorical ques). but seriously what is with me?? I should wear a flip flop on my head! Ugh!
Ok this journaling helped...
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017