Learning as I go

[tested metal]

W just picked up D for the day and I did everything in my power to keep from crying. W was very nice and asking about D's cold.

i am not attracted to W anymore and think that I want to cry just because I am getting divorced and what it is going to do to D. I am also afraid that this is going to financially ruin me and I am grieving the life I could have had with D and a little bit with W.

I am detaching but it is a lengthy process. i know I am making steps though they are small.

I am pretty sure now that this is for the best and I don't see any way of W ever coming back to me or out of MLC/whatevertheheckisherproblem.

I am moving on. I will have a new job, new apartment, and after that, basically a new life. It is time to reboot.

Another chapter in my life is ending, but a new one is beginning. I am pretty excited, but still scared for the future. I will make it through it though.