I've gone back through and reread this thread, again, as suggested. I can see how my responses could be interpreted as resistance. I'm going to make that a primary focus for any future responses, to avoid doing that, that is. Somehow I will have to distinguish between rejection/resistance and just sharing information. Same thing with being defensive: what's defensive and what's just sharing information. I'm guessing it has a lot to do with the attitude behind it, so I'll pay close attention to that.
Meanwhile, S and H are off camping. It was cold last night, so I don't envy them at all. Before they left, I did help H pack, sent along his cookies. And I gave him a hug and a peck when he left. Then he came back for two more, which I obliged.
I'm not heartless. I really do care for him when we were not in conflict. I just wish that wasn't so often. I'm going to keep working on what I need to do to eliminate my part of that. I hope I'm strong enough. I'm just awfully tired (not resisting, just stating how I feel.)
One day at a time.
You know, the thought just occurred to me -- I am sooo happy neither of us is dealing with the OM/OW. We couldn't do it. We'd just be done. I know other people have managed. I know Sandi worked really hard to get there. I couldn't. It would just be too much. One thing to be really thankful for, I guess.
