This is so hard. He came over to pick up the kids. He actually moved the dental appt he had for today so that I could go to happy hour. Turns out, my friend will be here too late for us to get to happy hour before he gets here with the kids. He needs to bring D7mos back before she needs to nurse. This got me emotional because he can go out whenever he wants and here I am, his free babysitter!

He reminded me about how we will now work out the bills. This is the first month we go back to separate accounts and separate bills. Oh my god, this hurts all over again!

Then he suggests I use a week of the timeshare because it's already paid for. I don't want to go on vacation with our kids without him! I'm not ready for that!

Ok, I need to detach! He is no longer my family. My family consists of myself and my kids. I will soon be able to go to happy hour, dinners, movies, etc once my daughter is a little older. This is not a crisis, but a problem. Problems can be solved. ok, I'm not convinced....


M 42 H 39
T10 (-2yrs separation)
S8 D5
DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA)
Reconciled 6/2013
Separation in works 1/2017