I suppose this sounds like an excuase, but I simply don't know how to do it. Again, if I did, I wouldn't have these problems.
if he is having an EA NOW, then it's not "history", it's an issue to work on.
Have you told your h that it hurts you, (or have you assumed he knows or ought to know?)
I did comment that I don't believe he knows you love him (do you? I mean I can't tell)
and if he truly does not feel loved by you then it's very easy to see how he'd rationalize an affair, even just an EA.
We all need some intimacy in our lives and if the old flame gives that to him, you might want to look at how empty HIS love tank is.
I say that b/c you don't seem to think you play any role in his behavior.
I am not making you responsible for him, but I AM saying it did not occur in a vacuum.
I say all that based on your words here. I appreciate your honesty here.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016