I'm really getting some insight into Accuray's W's situation.
This feels completely hopeless to me right now. Not my M, but my efforts to improve myself. I really just want to throw in the towel and say, "Forget it. This is what you get, H, take it or leave it. I don't have the energy or insight or ability to do whatever needs to be done, because I just don't GET IT and it's driving me crazy. At least with my normal dysfunction, I can at least still function. This makes me want to crawl into a hole and die, so I'll take my normal dysfunction over this any day."
