W told me she is done & doesn't love me anymore-P2

[Snowman]

Update-My cousin's cousin tragically died at 36 years old leaving a W and 3 kids and the funeral is on Saturday. Despite him being my cousin's cousin we know him fairly well and it is just life stopping for something like this to happen. My W knows about the death and is deeply sadden. She even wanted to go to the funeral but that would be way awkward at this point.

Anyway that discussion sparked the discussion if she really wanted to get work on things and not get a divorce:
W: Honestly these is a part of me that does but I don't want to get either of hopes up
W: If we do we have to take it slow
Me: I want to take it slow. We didn't get here over night.
Me: I will be honest, I have read more books and done more self analysis then ever before. I have started my letter to you and I plan on finishing it. I have a lot to share about what I have learned if your are willing to listen. I don't know what the first step is but I would like to take it not worrying about hopes either way. One thing I have noticed now is when I talk to you it makes me smile.
W: I Know. I think we talk more now than we ever used too and get along better when we do.
Me. I totally agree.
W: Maybe when you get back from your trip we can talk more about it.

We went back and forth a little more about what my S was done which was fun and end the conversation. She then texted me later and asked if I would email her some of the books I have read and I said sure. She then chatted with me more about what our S was doing.

I don't know what to think and I hope it is not a knee jerk reaction from the death in the family but I will work on it. I just got the revised D papers a day ago to finalize things so this is interesting timing. I would have freaked out if I were the old me but I'm all good and have something to smile about even more.

This has been a learning experience like no other. I will stay cool, calm, and collective. Time to take it slow and not push at all.