You have to have faith, that the perfect time will find you....
In the meantime, you are standing on your soapbox, screaming ..
Look at me, I'm different....
Pfft...
One day at a time...
If she asks, then you can explain that you need some time to reflect on everything that you had done wrong, and until you feel these things, then your apology will be only words. And that your true regret is that your actions spoke for you, for far too many years.
And that you had to do all of the wrong things, to learn the right things.
