Everyone will be surprised what they find inside if/when they actually do work on themselves. I love me and I like how free I feel in life. The easy road never leads to anything good in life!
Just an update:
Has anyone ever had the feeling their ex has found this site? I know if she found the site my username would probably give me away. That doesn’t bother me because I am very honest about everything with her. Even the hurtful things, I feel I have nothing to hide. Anyway she said several things that make me feel this way and I was dang near floored with what she said. I know that I have read somewhere that they usually follow you through this journey. I truly feel she is following me, after what she had to say yesterday. I have a lot of empathy for her because I remember how hard I struggled to find the clarity in my heart. When I did I just felt like a great person on top of the world.
A confident intelligent person never doubts the choices they make in life. Before they make that choice they think everything through and work out all the details. I am not saying that we as humans can’t make mistakes because you would be living a really sheltered life if you never made a mistake. You learn from mistakes and then you close that door and never make them again. For the first time in my life this is very important. Let me say I have made plenty of mistakes and those mistakes make you learn more about you when you think them through. I thought I might regret some of the mistakes I have made and honestly I don’t regret them I just don’t want to repeat them. I sometimes wish I would have learned this stuff years ago. Nobody comes out the gate knowing everything about life. They don’t have a manual and we all have to live and learn. The funny part it’s so simple and right in front of you the whole time. Once you take those blinders off you look at life for the very first time.
I don’t know how many of you are country music fans. The song “Better Than I used to be” by Tim McGraw has really hit home for me lately. Here are the lyrics.
I know how to hold a grudge I can send a bridge up in smoke And I can't count the people I've let down The hearts I've broke You ain't gotta dig too deep If you wanna find some dirt on me But I'm learning who you've been Ain't who you've got to be It's gonna be an uphill climb Aww honey I won't lie
I ain't no angel I still got a few more dances with the devil I'm cleanin up my act, little by little I'm getting there I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see I ain't as good as I'm gonna get But I'm better than I used to be
I've pinned a lot of demons to the ground Got a few old habits left But there's one or two I might need you to help me get Standing in the rain so long has left me with a little rust But put some faith in me And someday you'll see There's a diamond under all this dust
I ain't no angel I still got a few more dances with the devil I'm cleanin up my act, little by little I'm getting there I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see I ain't as good as I'm gonna get But I'm better than I used to be
I ain't no angel I still got a few more dances with the devil But I'm cleanin up my act, little by little I'm getting there I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see I ain't as good as I'm gonna get But I'm better than I used to be
Funny how this song should fit most of the folks going through challenges in life. Keep digging and find what you are looking for in life.
Me 44 W 38 M 18 D 18 D 13 Bomb 10/21/2010 Divorced 7/19/2011 Just getting to the 7th inning!
