Indecision and the affair continues (part 3)

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Like playing with matches when your house is already on fire? I agree. I am thinking I need to cut it off with OM until I have more clarity on H.

Yeah, interesting and very hard to push forward...but H doesn't like his world being rocked. He seems to be fighting in all directions. He was joking with me some on text msg later in the day...seemed friendlier than the past. On the other hand, feels like he is on a date tonight...silence.

My struggle is that I need to know at some point if H and I can set mutual expectations for what we want going forward if we were to try. I know that is a premature statement...but goes back to me not being sure I would take him.

The huge thing my OM friendship is giving me is some strength and more understanding of H. I know that is a bit demented.