Separation, Settlement, or Servellience?

[Yasu]

Aside from the medications, do you have any physical support with you? Friends or family? I might have missed it earlier, but did you start the medications after the problems with your H or have you been taking them prior to that?

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I have outstanding medical care. I have isolated myself - and am extremely reclusive.

Family:

I no longer associate with my Mother or Brother. However, a goal of mine is to re-establish contact with my Mother (an associate has already made an initial contact for
me - to bridge my communication, which I plan to do this upcoming Sunday morning). There will be no contact with my brother in the near future.

Husband's Family

I assume foreign Greek family overseas wants nothing to do with me due to divorce, and living abroad without my husband (yes, word gets around). I was advised, by a culturally sophisticated individual, to send them simply greetings that "I Love Each of Them". Which I took care of. No reply expected - as they do not speak English, nor do I speak Greek. But my notes were written in Greek characters, and all of them know that I love them deeply. That is all I can say or do.

Friends

I believe, due to either my illness or the medications, or my personality mixed with aforementioned - has caused difficulty with a few important friendships. The most important friendship, I see where I over-reacted. It was my goal to correct this terrible mistake, and I am happy to report that I have met this goal. I have saved my 15 year friendship.

The other two friendships that dissolved happened due to gossip based nonsense, Facebook Misunderstandings, BS, and immaturity that is out of my interest area. One friendship was extremely lovely, but it lived it's life. Once I taught this young lady the computer, and she became so independent, she really was a bird that needed to fly. The other woman and I were neighbors and not so close. I just hate for bad feelings from gossip to distroy friendships and comfort with neighbors. So, these contacts, I must let go.

While at the rental, I have made a lot of friends. I am not paranoid in that town, always looking over my shoulder for surveillance or hilusband observing me. I have made friends with many men as it is men I most come in contact with in the issues I face. I keep these contacts on a friend platonic level, period.

I have a couple girlfriends, not serious, neither have much time.

New Neighbors

Recently, my neighbors came out and cleaned my entire yard while I slept upstairs all afternoon. I guess my neighbors next door spread the word I was having some trouble recently. God know they all know I basically deserted the place last August after the accident.

Suzanne next door, got the youngster across the street to bag up some leaves for $25. But that barely made a dent. I left his check taped to the doorknob. I could not believe my eyes when I got up from my snoozing. Six neighbors and their kids were working their a$$s off in the front yard. There are like fifty bags of crap piled up at the road. I was so speechless. I would call that support. They all kno I never come out of the house.

The fact is, I am agoraphobic. I have been isolated so long. I am worried about making social mistakes when I go out. Some times, I stay as much as two or three weeks in the house. I am terrified to lose my house in the divorce.

I'm trying. I have a great therapist. I have a great website here a DB.

I have great people reaching out to me, like you Mr. Bond.

Thank you.