Also, as I withdraw my mood normalizes and I'm less affected by her. When I pursue my mood swings in response to her responses. When I withdraw I run a pretty flat line on the good side of happy. There's another tightrope there between being disengaged enough to maintain my mood but not disengaging so much that she feels disconnected. So difficult!
Ideally she'd want more intimacy and we could normalize there which would make me feel better all around, but she doesn't want that.
Accuray
Married 18, Together 20, Now Divorced M: 48, W: 50, D: 18, S: 16, D: 12 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 7/13/11 Start Reconcile: 8/15/11 Bomb Dropped (EA, D): 5/1/2014 (Divorced) In a New Relationship: 3/2015