Separation, Settlement, or Servellience?

[Yasu]

Yes, today I am coming unhinged. I started a new, (what I had hoped to be), a less convoluted thread. And what's the first thing I do? I start convoluting it up.

Brokenmom and Mr. Bond,

I will stay over here. My anxity and overthinking are not under control yet. I made yet another medication mistake yesterday, taking my night dose of medicine instead of my day dose. It will be a few days for this to shake out. I saw Phychiatrist yesterday, and he wants me coming in twice as often obviously. I cannot believe I was driving with all that sleep medication in me. Oh dear. I came home and slept off and on till seven o'clock. When bedtime came, I noticed my night medicine was missing from the container section.

Actually, I hate the way they have designed these things. I suppose it is a left handed issue. I am going to have to put some visual cues on the medication box to prevent this accident. This is really the best designed box in terms of the way the days and nights are laid out vertically. It's the color defertiation that caused me to make an error yesterday when I was in a hurry (note to self: stop being in a hurry when it comes to medication).

I really think of red as a day color (sun, bright, warm). And I think of blue as a night color (peaceful, cool, sun is down). However my new pill box is visa versa. Well, a little artistic invention, and I will handle this.

Many complex things I can do very easily. It is simple tasks that are extremely confounding to me with this disorder.

I have started a prayer thread, to make up for my agoraphobic avoidance of Church - that ceased about a year or so ago. Yes, indeed, I should add that to my Goals. I never really knew how to pray, but the reverend at the Church prayed with me a few times, and I got the idea. I found that I really like to create a visual in my prayer - that is the artist in me - therefore, the image I am contemplating at the time is called the "Dove Angel.". I will expand much more The Dove Angel, as God's thoughts and direction come to me.

Don't get the idea I'm a holy roller. I'm certainly not, I'm pretty much a total heathen! That characterization always makes the Reverand laugh! Thank you if you read my humble offerings here! Yas

You are supposed to take pills from red zone at bottom and work your way up to blue zone which is niche time.