I think you are doing amazing things for this early after the Bomb. I was a wreck for months.
I don't know what I would do in your situation. I just know that to get out of this a better person, I need to examine and be very aware of my motives.
Best of luck with the job.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss