I’ve been thinking this morning about how I can detach without backing away. Things have been pretty good at home, but H hasn’t said he isn’t moving out, and I am trying my hardest not to get sucked back in. It’s been hard because he’s being so “normal”.
It’s mainly emotionally/mentally that I need to detach. I haven’t been very successful with this since I started DBing. How do you do this when things seem to be going so well? I’m afraid if he tells me he’s still moving out, I’ll be right back depressed and upset like I was before. I don’t want that to happen, and doubt I can detach in a way that it won’t affect me. I know it’s a rollercoaster ride, but dang…just when I think I’m stable…
I remembered why my husband suddenly stopped mid-sentence last night. We were talking about him working out and doing the Insanity workouts. I told him he was doing so good, but then he hasn’t done anything in a while. He said he was going to start back up, and get back into it. Then he said, “Especially…” and then stopped. Maybe he was going to say “Especially since I’ll be in my own place?” Mindreading, I know. I didn’t make a big deal about it, and just kept the conversation moving.
The vertigo meds did help some last night. But they make me sleeeeeepy, so I’m sluggish today. It’s a rainy day here too, so that doesn’t help either. I’ll be lucky if my head doesn’t hit my desk in the next 15 minutes. LOL
