Lost, accept that you will have those mornings. Understand they will not last.
Researching causes for her behavior, my part in my sitch, self-help books and exercises, physical exercise, posting and reading what others posted, were all part of what got me through.
I experienced the most traction from acknowledging my part to me and working to improve myself, prayer, and physical exercise. Your mileage may vary.
It can seem overwhelming. When it does handle it like anything else. Break it up into smaller bits and take em on one at a time.
You cannot control what your W does or how she spends her time. Try to let go of the anger. You cannot compensate your son for her inattentiveness.
You can be a steady safe harbor he can count on. You can be a positive example of how to handle adversity. You can show him how a father loves his son
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill