there are days where I just want to lay it all put on the table too but, I'm afraid I'm just going to come across judgemental or angry which will just make H shut down. I wish there was an opportunity to speak w/ him where I could voice how I feel. Situation never presents itself though.
As for H still leaving when your S asks him to stay. I totally get that. My kids will tell H how much they miss him and why does he have to go etc. Sometimes I just want to shake him and say.. What is wrong with you?? In the end, I focus on the fact that I am here. And H's relationship w/ the kids is his responsibility whichever way he chooses to go. I figure it will be the kids that fuel the catalyst for change IF H decides to change.
Can we get on a different ride soon?
Me:38.. H:33. Two beautiful kids S:6 D:3 M:8.. together for 11. Bomb dropped:10/17/11 Separated:11/07/11
