Learning as I go

[tested metal]

Wow!

So today I got offered a nice state job with great genes, which would have been a $900 a month raise for me because the health insurance was all paid for.

I turned it down. Why? Because I was scared of leaving my current work, even though I need the money badly. Wow. I have a problem. I wonder how long I have hated myself, because I certainly seem to be punishing myself with making poor decisions.

I called the employer back as soon as I had my wits about me, which was 15 min. later. I got the answering machine so I left a message. They probably gave the job to someone else already. I hope she is just busy and will call back tomorrow.

Otherwise I am back to scanning the state jobs website again.

Sigh....