Sorry that you find yourself here. The best thing you can do right now is look out for yourself because no one else will do it for you, especially your H.
Read Cadets resources. They are very helpful.
Burn the 37 rules into your memory and no matter how much you doubt them or feel like breaking them, DON'T! Trust me, been there, done that, made the situation a whole lot worse.
As hard as it is to do, don't be afraid. You can do this.
Good luck! We are all here for you.
M:35 W:33 M: 5 yrs. Daughter: 2 yr .7/11/10 D Final: 8/7/12
