Wife and I have been getting on really well, lots of general chat and honesty
This morning she asked me if I would look after the kids for a few days in April as she was going away for a friends birthday, then she dropped in om was going with her, she had not mentioned him since the email drama and thought it was over She told me that it wasn't about him, it was a friend of his she met while with him, and would really like to go, my initial reaction was no, I cannot just standby and help her while she goes away with om, but after I calmed down and we spoke some more, it's not about him, she wants to go, and would really like me to help her, she said that she wanted to be honest with me, that I had been controlling in our marriage, and hoped I could understand that this was about her going away for a birthday that she wanted to attend
I agreed, I explained my initial reaction which she totally understood, but she was being very honest with me, and so I said yes
She thanked me, then we had a 2 hour conversation about us, the past and the future She said that she is on a journey to find what she wants, om is still there, but she doesn't know what's happening, she isn't thinking about it as he's away for another month
She told me she loves me, that I'm her best friend, that she likes the changes in me, but she needs to have some time to heal from the hurt She is considering councelling , she spoke about us working things out in the future, but doesn't want to commit to anything
She said the last few weeks we have come really close again, she wants to be totally honest with me about everything she does and thinks, she doesn't want to be on edge around me, she acknowledges my changes and loves what I've become She mentioned how I am with our kids, how they love me and my relationship with them is very sprecial
Basically she told me to be her best friend, not to apply any pressure on her, let her find her way, and who knows what will happen, she said we may end up back together, but at worst we would be best friends
It's dbing at its best!!!!
So I can only continue what I'm doing and who knows what will happen?
If anything being told she loves me, cares for me, and that I'm her best friend isn't bad really!! If anything it made me love her even more than I do
