Thanks Stephanie. I'm sorry you're going through this too. I'm very happy to have this group of people to talk with online. All of you make it easier, so God bless you, and thanks for the kind words, and encouragement.
Yesterday afternoon, I was not far from my w's new place, and I called her just to see what was going on. I was in a good mood, and thought I might swing by and drop off some food or something. I thought I might just swing by and see my d as well.
She didn't answer the phone--about an hour later I sent her a text asking if she'd seen the hip-hop walker, she never responded. So later in the evening I tried calling her again at about 9:30--and again the phone kept ringing. So I got in my car and drove by her house...just to make sure that they were ok. It was a waste of time and gas--when I drove by the house I could tell from the lights hitting the shades that the T.V. was on--I didn't realize the oscars were on--but I'm sure that's what she was watching.
I shouldn't have called, or texted. I guess I felt a little more confident because it seemed I was making some positive gains--and she usually answers her phone when I call. But who knows--she could have had the ringer turned off on her phone, who knows? Perhaps she was afraid that she was making it seem like she was coming back to me.
I'll admit I'm a little disappointed, but it's really not a big deal in the grand scheme of things.
I just need to refocus--work on getting a life again and not call her text her or anything else.
"Things are never bad; it's the way you think about them." -Epictetus
