2tp – Thanks for pointing out the positives. I’m too close to the situation to see the good before the bad sometimes.
Feeling better today, but still have a slight headache, minimal dizziness right now. Made a dr. appt for tomorrow morning. Need to get the dizziness under control. I have about a 45 minute commute on average, and would hate to have a spell in traffic.
So H and I watched the Oscars and NBA All-Star Game last night. I noticed something, but wasn’t sure what to make of it. Note: I found out about H’s A by going through his iPad (that I purchased as an anniversary/birthday gift I might add! UGH!). So after confronting him that initial time, he put a code on it so I couldn’t get into it. And he’s been pretty secretive about what he’s doing on it. Granted the past few weeks, his usage that I saw was not that much, but still.
Well, last night he was on it, but it seemed as if he wanted me to see what he was doing. He left the screen open multiple times, and just sat it next to him on the couch or on the floor. Once he even got up to go use the bathroom, and just left it wide open. (No, I didn’t snoop!) It just seemed out of character for him. He did the same thing with the phone several times. Not sure what this means, but caught my attention.
We had a good time laughing and joking last night. He offered to go get us some dinner and pick up some things from the store. (I’m sure this was used as time to call OW, but I digress…) He was very concerned about my dizzy spells. He said something completely crazy when we were talking about it, and there’s a much longer story to go with that, which I’ll share after my doctor’s appointment tomorrow. Just know I did a 180 and didn’t take what he said seriously. Good for me! Made me take some cold medicine because I kept coughing. He actually watched me to see if I was going to take it. (I swear, I don’t know who the DBuster is here sometimes…completely a 180 to let him take care of me. I don’t stop long enough usually for it to happen)
H seemed extra snuggly in bed last night. I was half asleep, but still noticed him in my space when I would turn over. The intimacy is still there. Trying so hard not to get attached to that. Got an ILY and kiss as he was leaving this morning. He stopped suddenly after that like he wanted to say something, but just shook his head and kept going. *shrug*
I’m wondering how I will ever detach if he’s so nice and seems to be loving and all that. He hasn’t given me an indication that he’s changed his mind about the D. And of course, I won’t ask him. Guess I’m really stuck in limbo for a while.
But I guess like Purg said on someone’s thread – just like I’m going back and forth with my emotions and feelings about our M, he is sure to be doing the same thing.
I didn’t get a response from my email with questions about DB coaching. Guess I just need to call the number and talk to someone.
