Hi Accuray - it sounds like you are going through a tough time lately. What is it you love about your W and your M as it is now? Try journaling that - if not here somewhere private. The dissatisfaction seems to be growing. I know you need to vent the bad stuff too, but take some time to focus on what's good to balance it out in your mind. To remind you of what you're working for, striving for. What you are maintaining your relationship for. I hope you can stay married and be satisfied in your marriage. It sounds lately like she is not bringing much to the table - look for the small things that might make you feel better. One is that she was willing to go see the MC - that was a big thing. One is that she ML with you twice on your vacation - maybe think of the "it wasn't good for me" speech as Tourette's like, something she seems to be unable to control, can you sort of tune it out? I'm grasping here.
What is keeping you motivated?
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
