So our Sunday night chat has been and gone. Didn't talk about much this week, I asked if me giving her space was still what she wanted and she said yes, she was at home today which is unusual for a Sunday and she said while I was round there I was getting in the way and she didn't feel like doing any housework but as soon as I went out in the afternoon she started cracking on with it??? I asked if there was anything she wanted to talk about and she said no, shes not in a very talkative mood. I asked if she had any plans for this week and she said she was going to see our new nephew on Wednesday and then she said she didn't know if anybody had any plans for tomorrow. By this I knew she mean't the 3rd anniversary of her dads death, I knew it was coming up but didn't know the exact date, I asked if she wanted to talk about that but she didn't.
I knew then there was no point carrying on the talk, so I said I was going, it was our shortest talk since I moved out. Just as I was about to leave I said to her that "I'd like to give you a cuddle to comfort you but I know I can't so I just want to say that I'll be thinking about you tomorrow and you'll be in my thoughts" She seemed quite happy about that and walked to the door with me and got a nice little wave goodbye.
All in all I think tonight went well, I had no desire to talk about the past and there were no emotions from me, just complete calm. I think last weeks talk was a serious backslide as shes been really off with me most of the week, thanks to your guys help I've learnt a lot from last week mistakes and the words of 25, Mr Bond and TS2 have been going round in my mind as I reviewed this thread before we had our talk. This week I've been able to concentrate better at work and I've been far less angry and not feeling so hurt and starting to feel more confident again. I feel like I've got a bit of life back in me which dissapeared a few years ago.
I'm going to make as many opportunities and take as many positives of this situation as I can.
