I've read books and was thinking about joining a group. Right now I can't wiggle one in, but I'm hoping to soon.

My real issue is her depression, guilt, and indecisions. One day she wants to be close and work on us and herself. The. next she wants to be alone or with someone else. We cannot afford a doctors help right now, but she does need it.

I do too. I have so much bottled up tension that I feel like I could explode. I started crying in the shower today. First cry I've had in a while.

I need some hope.


Me:42
W:43
M:03/08/98
SD17, D13
Found out about affair:12/16/10
Found out again: 06/22/12
Split: 06/22/12