Together Since We Were 15...Now Piecing

[Jenna333]

We had a rough day today. We both said it felt like the old relationship While talking about it we said we both feel like we're in self-preservation mode. We don't want to get hurt, so we're protecting ourselves. The problem with that is that what comes along with it is not being open, trusting, forgiving, sensitive to each other's needs. *Big sigh* This is very hard! We have our second counseling appointment Tuesday morning. I'm looking forward to it.

I'm feeling upset that he has not moved in yet. We've been dating for going on 4 weeks, and we were split up 8 weeks. I'm feeling this way about him not living here yet because he's often here. It's feeling to me like the cake-eating thing all over again, but in a different way, of course. He gets to come stay the night here whenever he wants, but doesn't *have* to stay here, and can go do whatever he wants, whenever he wants if he so chooses. SO NOT COOL! Not when we're together now and have kids together! He should not get to choose to be here and be a part of it or not while we're together, in my opinion. We did decide to take it slow, but I feel very ready to live together again. He says he will be moving in within the next week. I'm tired of feeling like we're living in limbo. He even had his address changed to my address. He said he's been planning on moving in, just was not sure when. Taking it slow is not very possible with us. We were just together for too long, and we see a lot of each other now. It feels like he just sleeps somewhere else about half the time. How is that helpful? I'm not seeing how it's helpful at all anymore.