WAW told me she doesn't want to be married pt3

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I don't really know. When I think about it I get annoyed, and this is when I am by myself or nothing to do. If I am active then it doesn't bother me. The big thing that bothers me was her not being in work on Wednesday and my neighbor telling me he saw her with her mother in the morning and then back around noon. Like they went for a meeting. My mind/gut goes right to her going to her attorney and her mom being there for support. Now we set up the payment arrangements and I have still not gotten any paperwork regarding this.

Yesterday was a difficult. My kids were with me at work because my son had a fever. I drove them back home last night. Told my wife all this and even suggested she pick up tylenol for him. They went to the circus today. I wanted him rested and better for it. When I dropped them off last night she just got home and was trying to figure out dinner for them and had no tylenol. I ended up going to my car to get my bottle and leaving it there. I also told her to order and I would go pick up dinner for them. Kids decided to eat pasta and soup. She was not sure what she wanted so I gave hugs and kisses to my kids, who then asked me if I was going to the circus as well. Told them it was a special trip with mommy and ended up leaving.
For the circus today they were going down with another woman and her daughter who is my sons age. This woman is also divorced and the H is being an ass. So they were taking one car and needed to get three seats in the back. So I offered my sons seat out of my car for my daughter. I took the spare key put the seat in the trunk and locked the key in the car for her. I text her told her it was done and made one more offer for dinner. She said "It's ok, thanks for asking. U have your own stuff to do."
In all honesty I was going to go eat sushi and go buy a phone. Sushi sucked and they were out of the phone I wanted to buy. I ended my night buy going back to my moms.
As soon as I set foot in the basement I started getting upset. I missed my kids and yea I wanted to experience the circus with them. The whole thing about firsts. Also I miss my kids and the value of the relationship of a family as a whole.
I am still not ready to give up!