I may be the extreme case

[MajorHavoc]

Rick: As to what I do, I own a small company in the internet/computer field.

Why do you think that you were like that ?

I'm repeating the pattern of my father. As I said, I still see his face yelling when I talk to him. He's gotten better, but never really admitted he has a problem. I'm told he didnt' actually hit me, but I do remember being pinched, and can vividly recall the phrase "I'll give ya a shot in the head" with a raised hand.

And that's what I would do. When I would lose control, I would give her a smack across the back of the head. (pause to cry now).

Every time I would tell myself I wouldn't get to that point, and when it happened, I wouldn't kinow how I got there, or why I did it. I've been to scared and ashamed to tell anyone to get the help I needed.

Co-dependent No More looks good. Another book I've read that has been enlightening was Breaking the Cycle of Abuse.