I over the past 5 years have been withdrawing from r, I have become depressed, no interest in sex, he's hugely interested in sex.
This is very typical thing to happen in middle age. Coupled together with the death in the family and looks like you have the ingredients for a crisis.
What are you doing for you? You are starting LRT so now how do you get out of depression and start living your life again? First you have to learn how to love yourself. You have lots of TIME now use it wisely.
Sorry you are on moderation but post frequently in small amounts and you will get off of it soon enough.
Oh and please hit carriage return when you post. It is hard to read large blocks of type.
