Well, hoping no more, and proceeding with what needs to be done!
Once I was forced to face the truth about OW I was done. Done with the R and want out.
Did some calling around today and found out he can't file in FL cause they don't have jurisdiction. So, NC it is and that leaves the 1yr sep. So, maybe it's a blessing. It can't be rushed and no matter how bad he wants it we absolutely will not be D by May. Soonest it can happen Will be beginning of Jan 2013. So, I guess whether I want it to be over or not, it's not over! Not completely anyway!
He can still see her, but he won't be marrying her anytime soon anyway (if that's what he's after).
You guys would all be very proud of me though. DBing, standing up for myself, forcing him to call instead of text .
1. He threatened, again, to just file and let the courts decide and that I probably wouldn't get alimony anyway. I said ok, fine, do what you need to do. I said I told you I wasn't ready to put it on paper yet, but if he needed to file go ahead. Of course, he backed off.
2. He doesn't know he can't file in NC, so earlier he says we can file in NC, but you won't get as much money and they can't divide my retirement. He said he was trying to be nice by filing in FL to give me more. I said you don't have to do me any favors. He said well I didn't want to leave you and the kids high and dry. I said we won't be because I'll be taking care of us. He didn't say anything else.
3. I have still been mostly dark, but a little grey. He texted me Wed, Thu, and today (about tax info we are waiting on and of course asked other info too). I didn't reply on Wed, replied to 1 out of 5 texts on Thu, and 4 out of 9 today. He did finally call first earlier today. Then he texted and finally asked if he could call again.
He continued to try to get me to get a roommate, tell me how to get a job, badger me about trying to stay here in our house, things he's giving me, etc. (I admit I was taken in on this because I argued back instead of just saying to call me back when he could stop trying to force me to do things because it's not gonna work. NEXT TIME!! )
He is trying to get out of giving me any money other than the child support.
I'm feeling really good today!! Yay me!! Big, big, big giant steps!! I have truly let go!
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