This morning showed me why sandi's 37 rules are important. I'm also adding KEEPING MY MOUTH SHUT as my own addition. LOL
So H and I ML again this morning. First time since he got back from Vegas. Still not sure what to make of it. Not sure if boundaries are called for or not. I’m not feeling bad about it happening or getting any expectations out of it. Honestly, it just feels good to be warm blooded again. LOL
H finally decided to go to the doctor for his throat. Came into the bedroom as I was getting dressed for work to ask me to call the doctor for him. (Two weeks ago when he had the contact lens issue, it seemed he was adamant about not asking me for help. This is something I used to do, but he hasn’t asked me to do anything like it in a LONG time. I’m assuming he felt pretty horrible to ask me to call the doctor.)
I asked what was wrong, and he said his throat was still hurting and he was tired of feeling bad. So I encouraged him to go to Urgent Care instead so he could be seen quickly. So he got dressed and came to kiss me goodbye. We talked about what he would need for Urgent Care (i.e., insurance card, ID, etc.). As he is walking down the hallway I say “I love you”. (Yeah, I know, Rule #11) He stops midway the hall, turns around gives me this look as to say give me a chance will you, and says, “I wasn’t finished talking. I was making sure I had my insurance card. I love you too.”
Go ahead and say it – KEEP YOUR MOUTH CLOSED! LOL I swear as soon as he said he wasn’t finished talking, I thought, Ro – remember sandi’s rules! Don’t force it on him. Then I thought…guess he told you! LOL Craziness in the morning.
H just called me at work and said he has strep throat. He has to take antibiotics 4 times a day, so it’s pretty bad. He can barely talk and said it even hurt to open his mouth to eat. Said he’d call me if he needed anything. Guess I’m still in my Nurse Betty role. I think I’ve been doing pretty good, but could probably do better since his care scale is WAY higher than mine. (I can thank my mother for that. This has been a topic of heated discussion before) I’ve just been leaving him alone to get some rest. But I don’t want him to think that I don’t care that he’s sick, which is how he’s felt in the past.
I am feeling less “obsessed” about the whole OW thing. I mean I know it’s happening, but I can only control me. At this point, the only thing they can do is talk on the phone, and text/email, since she doesn’t live here. My being here, living with him, following the DB principles has got to give me some kind of head start. Or at least that’s what I tell myself.
