Specifics, please! Can't afford telephone consult!

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Wow...hadn't heard that description of codependent stated in terms like that before. Yes, I will read that book. That is what H is struggling against. He has said those very words to me...married so young, we weren't fully ourselves, he has been living a life that wasn't the "real" him to expectations someone else set. Those statements are true based on what you said above.

Yes, I do like to volunteer at church! I love Andy Stanley and his relevant message and radical church for outsiders mentality.

Had a good time with my son today. Checked into a hotel and left the pets and then toured campus, had dinner and went to debate society meeting where my son spoke! He is brilliant! I find myself telling them things about ME that had never come up before, what I DID in college, etc that had nothing to do with their Dad. Me, me, me. Interesting. Home tomorrow.

Okay, can I share my latest stab in the heart? H sends flirty text to me and then another that was x-rated and mentioned OW being at our lake house in Va. I texted back "H, this is me. Are you saying OW was at our lake house?" Just let him go....I know. Are these little painful reminders that he detached from me long, long ago helpful in just releasing him. I was shaking. It just hurts so much. I feel so alone and rejected and abandoned and just plain awful. To top it off, my S18 was right there with me and i was shaking and in shock and tears. I feel peace and then he grabs me into his miserable vortex and spits me in pieces.

I have an interview at the Botanical Gardens to be an outdoor cooking assistant in the Spring and Summer for visiting chefs. I am also thinking of a personal chef business. I am tired of working from home as a medical transcriptionist, which I only did part time for the past 4 years. It is so isolating. I am an outgoing person and don't need to work from home to manage the children on/off bus, etc, anymore. I have an English degree but never had any desire to teach. Hmmm....plans for 1 year from now. I will get back to you.

Good luck with FIL this week. My calendar is open, so let me know when you'd like to meet! So many fake people in this town, it would be nice to know a few more people who aren't "perfect"! Tried that tennis scene...yuck!