I'm going between angry and sad today. Angry at my H for his A. Sad that because of his A (and my old habits), my M very well could end.
I'm also very tired today. I slept last night, but not that well. H is still sick, and gets choked in his sleep, so every time he would wake up, so would I.
I did get some GALing in last night: church & a Special Olympics conference call. I still feel like doing NOTHING alot of the time. Or just sleeping...I can't seem to get enough sleep. But I'm making myself do some things. Which I guess is the point of GALing.
On H's way out this morning, I got the hug and kiss on the cheek (he has germs so no mouth kisses! UGH!), and an I love you. He looks so sad sometimes. Makes me want to hug and kiss him to death like I used to do, and tell him it will be okay. (But I won't because it doesn't go with DB principles and what I'm trying to do)
Still, I'm feeling as if I'm starting over or not doing something right as far as DBing goes. Maybe I need to make another goal list or small positives list of things I want to see happen. Isn't that how some people do it?
As far as GALing - Hopefully next week, my energy level will be back to normal and I can get back to working out for real. As I said before I tend to be an overachiever, so maybe I just need to give myself some slack and say if I workout once next week, that's better than nothing. Otherwise, I know I'll feel like a failure for not doing my regular 4 - 5 days a week.
