WHG: And Alice goes down the rabbit hole...

[workinghardguy]

2TP, thanks for the link to Busto's thread. I haven't gotten through all of it but it's a good read.

Spent today replacing stuff that was taken out of the house. New bed for SD, new headboard, dresser, nightstand. It's a guest room and her room at the same time. It's where she'll sleep on nights she's here between bedtime and mom getting them.

Drama today with W's XH. He's mad that the kids are spending time with me and not him on nights that W works. He wants to watch them when she works. That arrangement would make me pretty sad, but I don't have much say in the matter. We'll see if it happens though. XH says that he wants to get them, though overnight wouldn't really work, but then tonight he tells the kids that there may not be many more Wednesday visits because he's not going to be able to afford the gas when he has to pay more child support. SS and SD both came home upset by that. If he wants to watch them he'll have to make that trip three to four times a week. Really? He's complaining about one for goodness sake. All I could do was tell them I'm sorry for how they are feeling, and that things will work out.

Helped W out today by going over to her place to receive her new washing machine. Turns out the supply faucets both leak. Simply told her about the issue and left it, no advice or guidance. She asked me if I could fix it and I told her it's beyond my plumbing pay grade (which is a very low grade) and something I'm not comfortable doing. She'll either have to live with the very slow leak or get the landlord to replace. She's managed to piss off the landlord already so she's afraid to go that route.

SD was touched that I put so much effort into fixing up a spot for her in my house. That felt good.

W just picked up the kids. We talked for a little bit about the XH and kids thing. I cried when they left. I love seeing the kids so much, but separating every day is really hard. I don't know if this arrangement is the right decision, but it's also very early to decide anything.

Over the past few months I've told myself that I would wait a year before trying to date anyone, etc... but that seems so damn long to me right now. Not that I'm eager to get out of the gate right now, but a year seems really long. So I've decided I'll wait three months and then re-evaluate how I feel. That doesn't mean in three months I'm back in... it just means in three months I'll take my temperature. It allows me to stop fixating on it right now. I know that right now it's fear of being alone for the rest of my life that's driving these thoughts. So 90 days I'll take a look and see. Who knows what the world will look like. If you'd asked me in June of last year I never would've said my marriage would be falling apart come September.