"I begged, pleaded, threatened, cried, etc and I thought it worked and brought W back. She lived a fake lie with me for about 2 months pretending all was well. "
You know she could very well have been trying and it was real. But she either felt guilty or smothered by you and had to leave again.
You don't need to be patient but compassionate as well. Try and see things from her POV.
Yes, I agree she could have been for real too. She kept telling me I was smothering her during that period. Always bringing up EA, crying, huggy, needy, tm all the time, etc. Classic desperado. I'm sure it helped drive her away (even though she still lives and sleeps in same bed, but it's still not here with me). Yes, I am trying to see everything from her point of view and am doing ok, but there are times that I want to lose it. have to keep my cool.
M 43, W 40 T 22. M 14 D 14, S 9, S 8 DD 11/21/11 Retrouvaille 4/13/12--and the healing begins as we begin a new journey together!