empowerment over, just had H pack his bags

[canadianMrs.]

I don't know what is wrong with me, but the last couple of days I feel a lot of anxiety about all of this. I have worked hard to get here, and now that H seems to be working with me, I am doubting how I can do this. A lot of feelings are being stirred up over all the things that have hurt me. I still want to do this, and I know saving this marriage would be the best thing for so many people, but it's like, now that it could actually happened I'm scared of that too. How do we really do this? Can we really do this? Is it normal to have this anxiety? I'm also struggling with how people will react. I've had such a great support system, but I'm worried that people will be dissapointed/think I'm "weak" for taking him back (I think its just the opposite) or all the gossip that will follow.