The Last Resort, 2weeks and nothing :(

[2chiquitos]

I had such a hard time not backsliding this morning. I woke up at 4am to change diapers and suddenly put 2pieces of information together. A pix I saw of him n OW on a plane and him telling me they didn't fly to mazatlan together.

So he shows up this morning as always to help me with the kids. I wanted to grill him, to accuse him of lying. I didn't. I held my breath. Told him to have a good day at work.

I tried to eat breakfast. So I called him n thanked him for putting all the paperwork together to refinance the house. Instead of just a "your welcome" he added "well since I'm the only one working it might not go through and ultimately this will benefit you." more talk of our future apart

DB coach Laurie said to look past this and go by his actions. So here goes...
Last nite after coparenting counseling, we got home and he lingered as I swept the floor. I didn't really say much but I could tell he didn't know what he wanted. He then offered to pick up dinner. Took S3 with him and quickly came back w food. He left and called shortly after just to tell me what he was going to do weights at the gym. Weird, I know.

I did do something good. I didn't look in the back of the truck to see if he had his overnite bag. I told myself I was going to avoid looking back there for my own serenity.