Where do I go from here

[Wedge5]

Another thing she said tonight was that she would give me the password for her bank acct while she is gone. So I will be able to transfer money to pay for daycare, kids clothes, and other things. This confuses me because when we were married she wouldn't share her passwords with me because she wanted her privacy. This included her email, facebook, and her access to our then joint bank acct. We had separate email and facebook accts, but she wouldn't share her passwords. This bothered be because I believe that spouses should not hide anything from each other. She knew my passwords, until I changed them after her refusal to share.
My daughter told me tonight that she wants mommy, like she usually does when she stays with me. I told her as always that I missed mommy too and that mommy was having a hard time. Then my daughter asked when mommy was coming back. I told her that I didn't know, and that mommy might not ever come back. It breaks my heart to hear my children say they want mommy. My youngest son told me that he likes mommy's house better than mine. My oldest hardly talks to me, but nodded yes when I asked if he wanted to go back to mommy's house.