Well, over the past three days I have been getting a taste of the "snake/shark eyes". They are not pretty!!
It is so much easier to realize that is not your S or H when they don't have the same caring look in their eyes, but at the same time it is really sad because it feels like you've lost them forever.
I have been so much stronger than I ever would have imagined and I know you can do it too. The anxiety of the first meeting is gonna be astronomical, so start getting ready for it now. Think about any anxiety your sitch has caused you and multiply it by 10. It will pass very quickly once you see him though.
Then, after that moment passes it will be much easier for you to move forward and continue to do the things you need to do for you.
I don't think he will be mean at first, he will likely be just as nervous as you. After the initial encounter though, that's when the mean and cruel P might start to show through as whatever coping mechanism it is for the WAS!!
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