37 year old virgin!

[lea74]

Thanks - I feel better. In fact I feel like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders as I have been obssessing about it for the past few weeks. I kept questioning my actions etc etc etc.

Been thinking about the dating and have realised that I feel a little insecure, because afterall I was rejected by someone I was with for 22 years. Almost quite literally my other half. And towards the end of our marriage my xH treated me really badly. (well they generally do when going through a D). To be fair my xH wasnt always a sh**t but he certainly became and justified his reason for having an A by telling me repeatedly I was a horrible wife. In fact the OW (who is now his W) also told me I was a terrible wife to my face. (Ironic considering she left her H for my H - so not sure of her standard for good wife)

Anyway being the people pleaser I actually believed xH about being a cr**py wife. I have for the past two years blamed myself but came to the conclusion a few months back that I was a fantastic wife. I put up with a lot of nonsense from him and tolerated his childishness - something I didnt realise at the time.

The bottom line is I was a fantastic wife, he was a rubbish husband.

I think that this 'light bulb' moment will certainly help me with future dating prospects. Nothing less then the best for me!