So I had mentioned to H about bringing the kids for a visit, it was just a "what if" thing, but he proceeded to really like the idea, and asked me several times when, so we agreed on Monday...
What a weird experience, I got to see his apartment, which he has nicely decorated, then he drove us around to see some places we went to a giant toy store, then to his work for dinner, he introduced me to his staff as his wife, and said a couple times "this is my family"
it was nice sort of living the fantacy of a family for a few hours. He hugged me when we left and said "I miss you guys already.." I told him we miss him too...he said maybe next time we could stay the night...
it really doesnt change anything, but it was a nice visit, and I feel good about making an effort, I just dont want to pretend or believe it is somehting it isnt...
Anyone have any suggestions as to what to do next?
m 41 h 44 d 17 (prev marriage) d 9 Never give up!!!!!
