I've spent so many years thinking about my future without him that I'm not sure I have it in me to re-engage. Even if he did a 180 on everything and I could fully forgive his past, I just don't know that I even want to try to rebuild.

Just an observation here - why are you in the same house still? Seems like you have made your mind up?

Me: 44
Bomb: 11/27/11
Divorced:6/12
Life goes on: 6/13


Dogs still like bacon...a lot.