Bingo... This was me EXACTLY. Unfortunately, the damage I did and my H's hurt is now too much to overcome. He sees his part in letting himself be treated like that and has vowed never to let it happen again. So he will never look back or trust me.
So I am applying my hard-learned lessions to all my R's, not just with H.
Anger is just too damaging to oneself and everyone around you. So true. When I think about this it really hurts because I wish she could see how dedicated I am to my permanent changes. Can’t go back and change anything.
With my travels this weekend I met lots of new people in P’cola, Mobile, and New Orleans during Mardi Gras festivities. The attentions and affections of female friends was great. It was GAL taken to the extreme! One thing I noticed last night was that I miss my wife a bit less every day. Not sure what this means. I know I want reconciliation, however, I’m learning that life will indeed go on and I am happier now than I have been in many years. So will this be the week I ask her to sign the papers? I’m very close to this…but I still want to wait a bit longer. I no longer feel like the “Sword of Damocles” is hanging over my head. This is nice! Hmm…what to do? I can honestly say that I am at an impasse on this.
Me: 44 Bomb: 11/27/11 Divorced:6/12 Life goes on: 6/13
