Waiting for the tides to change - 3

[BFloat]

i am in agreement w/ everyone here. not ready to date! i am not "done" w/ my M and really, just don't need the extra complications. and if things were to work out w/ H, would i be able to forgive myself if i had started a new R? i don't know so it's just better not to go there.

rick - you're right! i don't think we're meant to be alone forever right now, it feels ok. but i am amazing and beautiful dammit! and incredibly modest and humble too right ?

i had a teary moment today. asked H what he was going to do w/ his mom's night tables that were in the back of the car (she had left them when she moved to WI). he said he would eventually use them. made me teary that he has thought through that far. but i didn't let H see. and then i said to myself.. i am going to create a great life for myself and my kids w/ or w/out him. he will be missing out.

gf and i watched "what's your number". sort of romantic comedy but not sappy. actually not that great of a movie but, at least i can say i've watched it unfortunately ate the same dinner of carrot sticks, doritos and diet coke. and now i feel even sicker. don't worry.. i ate that after the kids went to bed! i fed them a proper dinner. lol.

H ended up txting me asking if i could forward some info from our joint email to his hotmail because he had tried to forward and it didn't work (not sure why he couldn't have just done it himself.. not as though you can't access that email anywhere). anyway, told me it was more complicated than he thought to get this license he wanted. i responded.. "oh. hope you get what you want". to which he said "thank you. i don't know that that is yet but thank you". it's all very weird and awkward.

physio.. work.. planning a fun weekend for my kids! i think we'll play tourist or something. go on a little adventure! and then the oscars on sunday. how many of you are up for a nomination??