Together Since We Were 15...Now Piecing

[Jenna333]

Thanks Pur and Rick. We definitely are trying to take this slowly and carefully.

School and work are going great! Can't wait until I get my first paycheck

J stayed over the other night. We had plans to have wine and watch a movie. He have his buddy a ride downtown after work (he didn't get off until midnight). I fell asleep. I wake up at 1am and he's still not here. I called him and he was on his way. He had a beer with the guy and some coworkers. He said he didn't think it's take that long and that he was really sorry. He said he realized how inconsiderate of him that was, though it wasn't intentional. I was upset because it reminded me of the 'old' J. His sincere apology was the new J, though. He repeatedly told me it wouldn't happen again.

I was upset mainly because we don't see each other every night. We don't live together yet. He had just hung out with friends the night before. I felt like I wasn't a priority.

First counseling session tomorrow. We sure need it Things are going well, but we both have fears that will crush us if we don't figure out how to properly deal with them. He often asks me if I find him attractive and if this is whet I really want. I know he is scared that a part of me moved on and it can't be changed. I'm worried he will leave again because he did it before when I wasn't expecting it. I hate that he works with the coworker he went on the one 'harmless' date with after he left me a d says they're just friends now.

I know he's in love with me. He completely handed the power over to me again (that's how it was for most of our R) and that puts a lot of pressure on me. It's a large test for me. I can't let myself take advantage of him. He's always been such a pushover with me.