Barely...just caught up on your threads. I can certainly relate to your thoughts about dating again or not. Be careful! It can be so tempting to want to enjoy the spark of being with someone who has an interest in you and you to them. It just plain suxx to know how much romance is out there in the world and we're not part of it.
I think all of your reservations make sense and if you have all these questions then you probably aren't ready to get back out there. I saying this from experience. My closest female friend, who I've known since she was nine made it pretty clear that she wants to take the next step with me. And don't think I didn't crave the thrill of being happy with a female again, and all the excitement that goes along with it. Really just the simple pleasures of female company ...miss it.
The people on this blog who are further down the road than us advise that we will know when the day comes that we will be ready to move on in life and dating too. That's one reason I have decided to move on with my own life, and expect to make some sort of decision about my M soon enough. I don't think we are meant to be alone forever after our S's took off.
I really wish you the best. You're such a good woman. If it means anything I felt such guilt about thinking about dating again and it's really only natural to question these things. Don't beat yourself up!
Barely, you're an amazing and beautiful woman. If your H is stupid enough to leave you, then its probably means there's a better match for you. At some point you're going to know its time to take care of your life and be open to a new path. Then again, maybe this will all work out with your H!
