H was just here making his food for the week. A small change: he called to ask if it was a good time to come over.
He didn't say anything to me, almost like he didn't even see me. He mumbled and fussed to himself while he fumbled around in the kitchen- complained about the tupperware cabinet (I hope everyone else's get as cluttered as mine) and how the lids don't match the tubs {I was thinking to myself that *HE'S* the only one who ever takes them out of the house, so most likely the blame falls on him for things being mismatched}, he complained about the pots/pans cabinet and how "there's too much sh!t in here".... He seemed to be overreacting to these things that used to not bother him.
Makes me wonder what's going on in his head. I can't help but feel that he's angry/frustrated that I'm around again since I've been gone for 2 weeks and he's had free rein of the house.
I excused myself upstairs to fold some laundry. I heard him continue to make noise downstairs and talking to himself. He came up later to get a handful of clothes (he grabbed enough that it seemed he's not planning on coming back here for a few days) He announced that he was leaving as he passed by my door and walked down the stairs and then he was gone.
I lost it. Started crying like a baby.
Why is it that sometimes I can handle his detached behavior, and other times it gets to me??
S6 is playing at a friend's house and the baby was taking a nap- so they won't get to see H until he comes here Wednesday night. My heart breaks for them- as much as I feel like a victim of this sitch, nothing compares to the pain and confusion that it's bringing to my sweet boys.... great, more tears.
M-31, H-31 T-9, M-7 S-6, s-20mth sep 8/1/11 ILYNILWY 11/29/11 Creating separation papers. Discover H has feelings for BFF, she does too 1/11/12 H moves out 1.20.12
