My Sitch/any better ideas than going dark?

[Broken74]

Thanks 111,

I don't even know if Anger is the word for my emotional state at the moment, I really am not angry. Crushed, disappointed, sad, used, tired, done, those are words that match my feelings at the moment. I have an anger management/Domestic Violence class tonight thanks to my actions and her decisions, which I am looking forward to venting at as well.

Emotion has not allowed me to see the forest for the trees for far too long. I am a patient man but there is only so much that one man can take. I am looking at the best case possible scenario if we were ever to try and reconcile, and it is not a pretty picture. It's one thing to try to get over an affair. It's another to try and get over an affair, being raked over the coals financially during separation AFTER SHE HAD AN AFFAIR, and then being further manipulated by taking advantage of your feelings afterwards.

I am a very logical person, and my logic has been clouded by emotion for far too long. I am for all practical purposes, an idiot. My prior behaviors and attempted recovery actions prove this fact.

So I don't think my feelings or position are going to fade. I realize that this would be considered a mileston in the divorce busting process, but it would appear that I am instead going to be one of the other ones who has had enough.

I'm certain when the first significant bump in the road comes along she will come looking for her security blanket. We'll see how that works for her when it happens.

Thanks again for your feedback I appreciate it!